What a week.

       I am in a strange mood this week I’ve been reading some pretty heavy books, I’ve had some big decisions to make and it’s hard to focus on school when your sister runs away from home. The most stressful thing of all has been the isolation of living in stem, without a car of my own and being an hour drive from any happenings I’m beginning to experience the loneliness I felt growing up here as a child. Terrible terrible loneliness with only breaks to remind you how lost you are. Really it’s amazing no one seems to suffer from abandonment issues when they leave. Did I mention my sister ran away from home? That was pretty crazy. I had the car reserved for tomorrow and was going to get out a bit but nope not now, might need the car to pick her up from who knows where. Am I mad at her? Yes totally, she didn't just get mad and run away. She planned this, how far ahead? Who knows? I’m sure deep down she’s hurting but her stated reasons for running are claims that her parents are too strict? Too strict has under gone some serious changes, in the past it was a term belonging to parents who suffocated their children in ridiculous rules now apparently according to Abby it applies to parents who won’t let their daughter hang out with twenty year old men and get drunk. I am concerned for her safety, I'm VERY concerned but still frustrated with her. Sigh… going to be a hard week.