Paradoxes

             Its five o clock in the evening and I’m trying to study for midterms, I have my caffeinated beverage my music playing through my noise canceling headphones. A question comes up in the room beside me that seeps through the melodies, this is a question about trust. The details of the question aren't as important as the question itself. Regardless of how many variables you change there is still no inequality to the equation, both doubt and trusts have the same appearance. If I love this person then I should trust them but what happens when I’m wrong and they hurt themselves? Still undecided it did appear to me as a common theme in life.             Life seems to be full of impossible decisions, if choice A and B were warring factions we would be the deciding factors. Sometimes we can create our own choices, sometimes choices are made for us and sometimes choices disappear but at some point we have to choose sides in this stalemate. We choose sides by giving value to something that otherwise has a static value. We do this when we make the important choices like who to marry, what to do without lives and does God exist? I never believed in the prophesy about the “one” who will someday show up and be everything I’m expecting, without choice relationships become meaningless.  We each could pick from more than one partner and it’s the value we lend them that also gives value to the relationship. Some choices are not as dynamic by nature; I never believed that other religions (atheism) were masses of ignorance or that they did not experience faith like we do, however there either is or isn't a greater soul that binds all things. If God exists he does so independent of the values we give things.    These choices make us who we are, we are not our choices we are ourselves but choices are how we form ourselves. Sometimes we assign the wrong values and faults manifest in us, we cannot even see where we went wrong because of synthetic happiness. Synthetic happiness is where we grow more comfortable to a choice we've made in the past as time goes by, an example would be picking the wrong flavor of ice cream and thinking “well I like vanilla more than chocolate anyway”. Things get more serious when were thinking things less about ice cream and more about the people we chose to marry, where we work and God.  If we make a wrong decision that has lasting effects confusion ensues when we can’t see where we went wrong, Synthetic happiness exists to help us live with bad decisions but it also blinds us to real issues.  When making decisions we need to remember that the values we set today will affect choices we make tomorrow.              I’m going to make a decision about the question I mentioned. I’m probably going to trust this person because that’s the kind of person I am, I would rather leave myself vulnerable and believe in people than to surround myself with walls(of course Trust does not equal unquestionable faith).  I think the reason we are given such questions is because the human mind draws conclusions from comparisons. In order to choose faith there has to be doubt and an equal force in both at least before a choice is made in one or the other.